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Musing about chronic (urinary) pain
May. 14th, 2019 06:17 pmI'm not officially diagnosed, but I'm very certain that I have interstitial cystitis. Every now and then, especially during stressful times and after certain triggers, I get what looks and feels like a terrible UTI. Except antibiotics don't help, and almost every urine culture I do comes back clear. At my worst, I was getting episodes of this every...hmm, 1-2 months, and the pain was absolutely disabling.
It didn't start that way, though. When it first began to happen to me - yes, it was painful - but I could continue doing what I wanted to do around that pain. The pain was easy to shove aside and get on with my day. That part changed over the years, and I grew to dread even the faintest stinging sensation, because I knew it was going to end up in blood and hours bent-double on the toilet.
( Yep, it's about my bladder, and there's a TMI kinky anecdote coming up too. Click at yer own peril. )
It didn't start that way, though. When it first began to happen to me - yes, it was painful - but I could continue doing what I wanted to do around that pain. The pain was easy to shove aside and get on with my day. That part changed over the years, and I grew to dread even the faintest stinging sensation, because I knew it was going to end up in blood and hours bent-double on the toilet.
( Yep, it's about my bladder, and there's a TMI kinky anecdote coming up too. Click at yer own peril. )
